On Why I'm Dying

I almost bought a fish the other night. That's how desperate I am for a pet. I also literally sat staring and gushing over the parakeets in Petsmart that same evening (how can you not love those little birds, especially after seeing one hold onto the tail of another as it was trying to fly?!). I'm an animal lover plain and simple, and I've never felt so deprived in my life.

I've become that weird person that has to run up to every dog I see (always making sure I ask the owner's permission of course) just so I can get my fix. Yes, my fix. The animal fix. I even get excited when I see a squirrel nowadays. Just not a lot of nature where I am. Of course I could be a good samaritan and volunteer at the animal shelter... for $25. You have to pay to volunteer. WTF.

Allie girl <3

Don't even get me started on horses. Seeing a picture can get me all misty eyed. I'm not even that great of a rider, but damn do I love me some horses. It pains me that I'm never around them as much as I could be (my friend and I missed our orientation for a therapeutic horse riding place last weekend due to our overindulgence in alcoholic beverages the night before :/ ).

So this is what my life has become. I'm so pet deprived that I almost bought a fish. At the same time, I semi-can't bring myself to do it. They're just so insubstantial. But beggars can't be chosers, and my plant just isn't really cutting it...